A New Beginning

Traditionally, I like to keep many of my things very private, but I've got to accept that I need to show people who I am and be honest. After all, I can't change who I am, so I should accept it, and allow everyone else to accept it too by letting them get to know me. Sometimes, there will just be strange or unusual thoughts that pass through my head that I'll include, and sometimes, you'll just think I'm nuts- that's ok, because I really am. Honestly, I have a lot of things to do, and my life is rather hectic, but this is going to be a way for me to take time out for myself, reflect, and express myself.

It's rather ironic (considering recent events) that the CAPTCHA for creating this blog was "paingets"...because really, I've been getting a lot of pain. I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago, I've got a sinus infection, and I've gotten so stressed out that I've gotten tension headaches. However, I don't want to bore everyone with a detailed medical history, I just thought that was an interesting coincidence that I should share, because the internet is full of wonderful and crazy things.

Today, I was 4 minutes late for biology, which is rather impressing considering that I actually left later than I wanted to. It's okay, the evil she-man let me in today; it's the beginning of the semester, I'm lucky. I am very morning-avoidant, unless it's, say, after midnight, when I haven't slept yet. In those circumstances, I love the morning to bits and pieces!

Unfortunately, most people live on this strange schedule that requires them to sleep when it's dark and wake up before the sun rises. In my mind, if the sun is not up, then I should be preparing to sleep, or sleeping. However hilarious that is, it's not going to work in the real world, and I realize this, so I've tortured myself into withstanding the days. My body hasn't taken the message, though, and would rather continue to stay up half the night doing other things. I try to resist, but I'm impossible, and often if I want to sleep early, it has to be a medicated sleep (sadly). I accept that.

Laughably, I have so many tabs open that there are arrows for navigation. This would be more funny if I didn't have a baby shower to go to tomorrow- because it means I'm not quite ready to wind down. I'll spend half the night online >.< I'll regret it in the morning! Oh well, what shall be, shall be.

You might ask- why am I writing this? Honestly, I am kind of vain and want people to read about me and like me. I want to express myself and be accepted. I don't want people to be evil and say "Your writing sucks...shut up!," however, those kinds of people troll the internet because they have nothing better to do. I wish I could spend my days trolling blogs of self-conscious people and writing them mean things.....wait.....no, I don't. I love people. I want to write wonderful things about you too. Starting out, though, I don't have much material. Since that is the case, a lot of the things I write will be random things that pop into my head, probably with a lot of narrative. Someday, it'll get better, and people might actually want to read it, and maybe I'll even have more time to put into it. I'm probably a decent writer, but sometimes have a short attention span, and have to go back and edit and re-edit to make my stuff make sense! It's the nature of my mind. I also like to make people think, including myself, so sometimes I'll run off on a tangent. Forgive me!

Currently, it's after 02.00, so I need to go get some rest...yes, medicated, but I still need it.
Love me for who I am!

Peace Love and Music ☮♥♫♪