03 November 2011

Anticipation and Anxiety

When it came time for me to come back from my bloggy break, I was anxious. I had a lot of anticipation. would I have a lot of new ideas? Would I have a lot to post? Would it be easy to jump back in? Would it be difficult?

Anxiety is something I experience often. When I planned my comeback, I had no anticipation that I would have a job interview...or a second interview...or a job. I knew my parents' anniversary was the first, and after that, I planned to start blogging again. Now I'm gripped with fear- what if I can't keep up again? It's been so long, I'm out of the habit, what will happen?

Plus I'm preparing in anticipation for my impending graduation, a little over a month away. Thanksgiving is approaching in the states, which is a bit of a thing to anticipate because there's always a family hooplah. My birthday is soon after, which has become less exciting. Black Friday is also soon after, which had less significance until my recent acquisition of a job.

Then there's December. My grandparents may be coming down from St. Louis for the event. I've been anticipating it...well, since the day I found out I was getting that piece of paper! Then there's the holiday season, which, of course, will now include retail working hours. There's also the fact that I've been anticipating the licensing exam for social work, which I needed the money to pay for (and will now have, with a job), which I will have to study for. That alone can cause a lot of anxiety!

Of course, it was already going to be an anxious season because of the number of events coming up, but now there's a lot of work tied to it with a retail job, and a lot of cleaning to be done! Anticipation is a good thing, but when you start adding more responsibilities and events, I become more anxious and awkward. Here's to hoping that I have enough time to sort through everything, and continue blogging too!

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15 comments:

upinthecosmos said...

You just gotta look at it as a fun thing, a time for ya to release anxiety and just blog away. I use my blogging as a stress reliever... it started out that way anyway. I used to blog daily but now it's more sporadic and no pressure, just fun. If you make it a task then that takes out the fun and makes room for anxiety so just let it flow;-)

JDaniel4's Mom said...

What a busy time of year for you! I hope you will be able to take a break when it is all over.

Vicki/Jake said...

Anticipation was one of my favorite songs...years and years ago:) Settle down, life takes care of itself....

Diane said...

I find that blogging helps with anticipation and anxiety a lot. Breathe it all in, blog it all out! ;)

Sue said...

You have a lot going on, so don't be too hard on yourself if your blogging takes a back seat now and then.

My son took that exam a few years ago, and you're right. It ain't easy! But I'm sure you will succeed. And now they don't have to do an oral, at least in California.

=)

♥α§ђ£ε¥™♥ said...

@upinthecosmos: I do see it as a fun thing, but I don't like to have my posts too clumped at some points and absent at others....I'd like to have the time to regularly write at least a little something :)

@JDaniel4's Mom: It is busy! January usually slows down a bit.

♥α§ђ£ε¥™♥ said...

@Vicki/Jake: I feel like I have to take part to make life go the way I want to....it's always been hard for me to just relax and let things happen as they may.

@Diane: I do that but still have a lot of anticipation XD

@Sue: It probably will take a backseat now and then....did you say oral exam? Thank goodness I live in Texas...

Anna @ Confessions of a Psychologist said...

Gosh! What a busy time! You know what I say? Prioritise! You can't be everything to everybody. So make a list of everything you have to do and rate them in order of importance (and of course, some you can't get out of) and then tackel them one at time. Sometimes writing things down makes it look a bit less overwhelming. Plus you get to tick them off your list whick always makes me feel like I've actually achieved something!

♥α§ђ£ε¥™♥ said...

I've actually given that as advice before myself :P it's just easier for me to give that advice

anitamombanita said...

The antithesis of anxiety...Don't worry, be happy!! :)

storybeader said...

I hope you can relax and enjoy your holidays. Family first is another good axiom! {:-Deb

BEAR's Mom said...

you do have a lot of things coming up...AND topics for blog posts!
maybe just a few lines about what/how you've handled those situations and you'd still be blogging.
either way...follow your heart :D
~victoria~

Jenny said...

Ashley. Anxiety is such a horrible thing. I'm hoping you can relax and enjoy what's coming at you! Sometimes I just try to remind myself that 'things are never as good as I hope or as bad as I fear.'

Sending a big hug your way.

Thanks for linking up to Alphabe-Thursday's letter "A".

A+

Anxiety Health said...

It will take up to 6 weeks to start working! Don't give up!** I am 6'5, 210 lbs (male) and have taken lexapro for 2 years for anxiety. In the first week, I had horrible insomnia and the anxiety increased horribly -- I ended up on Ativan to quell the anxiety for two weeks. But after that, the anxiety seriously decreased. I no longer sit counting the minutes until a meeting is over, or laying in bed worrying at night.
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alvaro said...

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