Change is scary.
I will be going through a major change next Thursday, when I go to my last class of my undergraduate career. Then, suddenly, I'll be a college graduate. I'll be finished. I'll lose all the university privilege stuff that I've been using, the library, the username that I can log in and read all the
boring fascinating research articles, parking on campus, and whatnot.
Everyone experiences change differently. I experience change through major and almost disabling anxiety that makes me so anxious that it's almost impossible to construct and understand formal language.
Change doesn't have to be this scary, but each person's interpretation and environment, as well as previous responses to change and outcomes can affect their predisposition to anxiety and whatnot.
Change can be good or bad, but you never know until you actually experience the change.
The same change can be viewed differently by different individuals. My graduation from college is being met by excitement by most people, but I am to the point of fear and almost dread because I don't know what comes next, since I don't have my social work licensure yet, and that may take until November.
I'm wanting to handle this change in a more positive way, but it's hard when you finally see the light at the end of the tunnel, but you've been in the tunnel so long that the light blinds you, and you can't make out what is on the outside. It's been a 6-year long journey through university, with many stops, very many slow and steady semesters, trying to take it at my own pace and just make it through, and now that I've sped up a little and I'm finishing, it is scary. It's hard to describe to someone who hasn't been there.
I'm not putting pressure on myself. Well, I mean, I am, because with a degree, you're supposed to be able to *more easily* get a job, but that's not always the case. I want it to happen. I need to move out, I need to move on. I need to make changes but it's scary when everything changes at once.
Another thing I know about change: it isn't easy. It's never easy. Sometimes it's more manageable than others, but it's never simply easy. Adjustments always have to be made somewhere.
And that, everyone, is my first "Things I know" post for "Yay for Home"
Edit: as well as my first "Freaky Friday Follow"